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Saying Goodbye

12/28/2011

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_I normally can't sleep on planes but i found myself being comforted by the noise of the aircraft, i felt so at peace and it was like i was being gently rocked to sleep. Finally leaving Norway after 7 years.  Mentally i had released all of my fears about the future and any expectations i had placed on myself and i found so much comfort being just ' in the now'.
I keep saying that it is going to be 'hard' to begin with but i find Dr Wayne Dyer in my head saying you don't attract into your life what you want, you attract into your life 'what you are'. And you are what you think, so you have to be careful what you think because that becomes your reality. He goes on to beat another message into my head ' Don't believe everything you think'.  Sounded weird when i first heard him say that, but the more i examined my thoughts and behaviors the more i realised that message to be true. So for example my thoughts on how my last day in Norway would be didn't really playout in reality. I thought it was going to be so difficult but in reality it wasn't as hard as i had thought. Maybe because i had baptised myself in enough tears over the last 3 months and had fully realised it was the 'END' and that my life would never be the same again.
So now whenever i think to myself that starting new isn't going to be easy, i tell myself that it is going to be easy regardless if it is actually true or not because i can choose to think positive or negative and i think positive!
What i am going through is nothing new, so many other people have done or are doing the same thing. I have this mental imagine in my mind and it is me as a boy and i have fallen over and hurt myself, instead of laying there crying i get up as fast as i can and even though my knee is bleeding i continue to walk and i still continue to cry...but i am moving forward. For me i think that is an important message that even if we are hurting and we have pain, we have to keep moving forward, we have to continue on our journey, sure you can cry along the way, but don't stop, don't pity yourself. You just have to get on with it. Maybe that is how i can deal with difficult situations and why i have been called 'so brave' on many occassions. I don't see it as being brave, i just see it as ' getting on with it'. I am reminded once again of a story Dr Wayne Dyer talked about in one of his lectures and it was about a zebra (or some wild animal in Africa) and it had just had its leg chewed off by a lion but it had managed to escape and it was just eating grass and getting on with its life. It wasn't complaining 'poor me or how could this happen to me', it was simply eating grass and getting on with life. Ofcourse we are much more complex and are aware of our mortality but i think that message was an important one for me, to remember to keep going on, to keep moving forward even if you have a huge chunk taken out of you. You have to do otherwise your finished. There is always going to be 'downs' but there are equally going to be 'ups'.
So i finish this entry unsure of my future or what will actuality become my new reality, but i stay positive in my 'unsurity' (if that is such a word) and just have faith to focus on the 'now' and my passion, the rest will playout as is planned and i will continue and walk forward, wounds will heal and a new day dawns.

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alyce unger link
12/27/2011 06:51:36 pm

Gary..as long as you put only positive out there...you will get only positive back and everything will be fine...you most definately are what you think so think VERY clearly...control fear...keep all thoughts alighned with the soul...it will help!! also..try to never give in to doubt..its so damn hard to crawl out of it once you allow it in....

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Jerene
12/27/2011 07:16:09 pm

Thank you so much for this blog. You may not have meant it to be inspiring, but I have been "stuck" and its time to just move forward. Blessed Be, Gary!!!

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Kim link
12/27/2011 09:02:20 pm

Gary, keep your chin up and just keep going. Yes! I loved the story about you falling as a boy and getting up really fast and running but still crying. That is exactly what I do. I run and cry at the same time. The good thing about doing those two things simultaneously is, the tears dry much quicker by the wind. May love and happiness follow you wherever you go in life. XXXOOO

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Tina Koyama
12/27/2011 10:52:34 pm

That was so raw and beautiful. You are so beautiful. Thank you! I've learned a lot even from this one post! I wish I could be more like you !

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Meryl
12/28/2011 07:03:52 am

Great post! We are all on this very same journey. We only have Right Now. The past is gone and can't be changed, the future is not certain - or promised. We have now. And how we deal with what we are going through right at this very moment, is how we continue on. You can choose to be depressed or happy. "Pretend" that you are happy, and you will be. If you are alive in this very moment - you are blessed. You are also blessed with talent, friends, and hope. Best wishes for a wonderful, happy New Year!

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Melissa
12/28/2011 08:58:06 am

Gary, you have to live in this momment. You'll never know if you will have tomorrow so. Live for the now! That's all you have. Keep positive and remember to smile.

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Julia
12/28/2011 07:44:58 pm

Gary, my heart went out to you but I also know that you are going to be fine. My life was pulled out from under me after a 34 year relationship where I'd thought we were happy but apparently one of us was not! However, after having most of my life trashed before me...I kept on going..and I am now in a wonderful time of my life in a complete different place both metaphorically and geographically in a beautiful relationship and I am so happy that I went through that awful time..without it I wouldn't appreciate this happy time. So good luck for your future, look after yourself and much love from me xxx

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Darlene K Campbell link
1/2/2012 02:19:49 pm

Gary, You are remarkable at presenting who you truly are through your art and blog stories. And as I read your stories I think you have another talent..that of expressing yourself. Your blog could be a very intersting book. You might like to think about writing an art/memoir book. Of course include photos of your art and provide some tutorials. Also, highlight some other artists in your book. Perhaps "North Light Books" in Cincinatti, Ohio as a publisher. Another new avenue for you to consider....
Darlene

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